Monthly Archives: December 2011

Retreat: Day 2

Retreat: Day 2

Today was quite uneventful. It felt a lot like saying goodbye to the person I love.

It’s night and I walked the length of the beach alone. I waded in the waters, stopped for a while and looked up. I saw the most amazing stars this island could offer. I smiled. I remember the nights I watched the stars with him, also in a beach. I was saying goodbye to all those memories.

To you –

I remember that time in Tagaytay when I saw the girl with you in that photo. You were in the shower. I contemplated packing up hurriedly and leaving. Instead I walked out the door and tread the highway of Magallanes in freezing air, trying to stop myself from crying. I was walking and you found me. You were carrying our valuables because you had to leave our hotel door unlocked since I took the keys. You saw me and walked towards me. You suddenly bursted, “what are you doing?!” I said, “nothing” while clutching the sleeves of my jacket, controlling myself. You sighed loudly and huffed off. I followed slowly and was just about to reach our room when I heard our room door slam. I entered the room and you were lying down on the bed watching TV. I put down the room keys at the side table. I took a shower, and complained about not having hot water when I got out. You asked about it. We were civil.

I lied down on the bed and tried watching TV. Rush Hour 2 was on. You were watching me and after a while asked what was going on. Eventually, I told you. You said nothing happened between you and the girl. It was when I told you I’m not going to see you again and you were here, on the same island I’m in now when you met the girl. I believed it but I doubted that nothing happened.

I’m saying goodbye to those memories. To the memories that hurt so bad to the memories that made me happy.

I look up the stars and wish that I could let go.

Love to Be ME – Day 15

Day Fifteen:

I love my smile. And I love smiles. I love how smiles can brighten one’s day even if it’s just from a random person or someone who has a crush on you. It makes you feel good about yourself and it makes the day more tolerable and less terrible. I love my smile and I love how it brightens people’s day. What words cannot describe, smiles are a tool to say something you can’t say through words.

Christmas Gift List

So I haven’t done any shopping yet and I need to budget so here goes –

  1. Mom and Dad (they get 1 gift because they just have everything unless it’s super expensive like a Maserati)
  2. Mike (probably a shirt)
  3. Clarence (some Japanese music CD)
  4. Ninang Becky, Ninang Corrie, Ninang Rose
  5. My boss (a tie??? what do you give your boss??)
  6. Ms. Malou (probably some sweets or any ceramic stuff?)
  7. Ms. Luz (other ceramic stuff, or maybe something like a lotion)
  8. Mike and CPG
  9. Mia, Claud, Mara, Paul (some food)
  10. Jeng, Ate Nellie, Jacky (?????)
  11. HEA, Ma’am Erma
  12. Kuya Guard, Ate Necie, Dennis
  13. Jayjay, Jemjem, two daughters of my cousins
  14. Joesie, Carl, Anna, Eunice, Suzy, Ivy, Peewee, Claire, Anj, Tal and Cheska (crossed out because they’re out of the country)
  15. Xie, Evie, Anna (if I see you guys lol)

It’s official. I really hate shopping for gifts. I don’t even know if I should give something to some of the people there when they’re my ex-boss.

And yes, I’m not worried they will see this because I didn’t publicize this blog for them lol

Love to Be ME – Day 14

Day Fourteen:

I love how easy it is to make me smile. I admit that there’s a big difference between being happy and smiling. “Happiness” has varying degrees for me and the term, “happy” is way over there at the top of the scale. Nevertheless, I love easy it is to make me smile – like whenever I see the white doves flying around outside the window of my office, or a brown canary tapping on the window, or the sudden drizzle.

Love to Be ME – Day 13

Day Thirteen:

I love how calm I am despite the pressure and the chaos around me. Most people they would get cranky or would rather have their heads blown off. Sometimes I wish that as well. Pushing that aside, because of my calm attitude, I’m the go to person of my friends. Being calm in general is good as it means not being stressed out as much.


I’ve been really excited to write my bucket list for 2012. First time to write a bucket list just for the year so I’m excited!

  1. Get a diving license (even though I don’t know how to swim)
  2. Go to Romblon via ferry
  3. Go to Baler and explore not only the beaches but also the town (maybe I’ll try to learn surfing!)
  4. Go to Coron and spend less than Php 5,000 exclusive of airfare
  5. Go shooting at least once in two months
  6. Get accepted into a university or business school in another country for Masters
  7. Related to #6, get a scholarship
  8. Travel to at LEAST two other countries
  9. Go to US, just for the sake of using my visa so it wouldn’t be that hard to renew it
  10. Trek Mt. Makiling and Mt. Pinatubo
  11. Go wall climbing
  12. Try out laser tag, or paintball
  13. Go on a road trip, or travel alone
  14. Have at least three spontaneous trips
  15. Lose AT LEAST 6 kg
  16. Get a NEW hobby, something different like poi or capoiera (but I’m not going to take poi or capoiera)
  17. Learn how to ride the bicycle